f its glory, and he was astounded; but his heart within was filled the more with envy and hate.
Yet such was the cunning of his mind and mouth, and the strength of his hidden will, that ere three years had passed he had become closest to the secret counsels of the King; for flattery sweet as honey was ever on his tongue,rolex submariner replica, and knowledge he had of many things yet unrevealed to Men. And seeing the favour that he had of their lord all the councillors began to fawn upon him, save one alone, Amandil lord of Andъniл. Then slowly a change came over the land, and the hearts of the Elf-friends were sorely troubled, and many fell away out of fear; and although those that remained still called themselves the Faithful, their enemies named them rebels. For now, having the ears of men, Sauron with many arguments gainsaid all that the Valar had taught; and he bade men think that in the world, in the east and even hi the west, there lay yet many seas and many lands for their winning, wherein was wealth uncounted. And still, if they should at the last come to the end of those lands and seas, beyond all lay the Ancient Darkness. 'And out of it the world was made. For Darkness alone is worshipful, and the Lord thereof may yet make other worlds to be gifts to those that serve him, so that the increase of their power shall find no end.'
And Ar-Pharazфn said: 'Who is the Lord of the Darkness?'
Then behind locked doors Sauron spoke to the King, and he lied, saying: 'It is he whose name is not now spoken; for the Valar have deceived you concerning him, putting forward the name of Eru, a phantom devised in the folly of their hearts, seeking to enchain Men in servitude to themselves. For they are the oracle of this Eru,http://www.australiachanelbags.com/, which speaks only what they will. But he that is their master shall yet prevail,fake rolex watches, and he will deliver you from this phantom; and his name is Melkor, Lord of All, Giver of Freedom,Homepage, and he shall make you stronger than they.'
Then Ar-Pharazфn the King turned back to the worship of the Dark, and of Melkor the Lord thereof
Sunday, December 30, 2012
Tuesday, December 18, 2012
寮備埂寮傚 Stranger In A Strange Land_435
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ll the editors and senior officers at thepublishing house had changed. So this version was a complete surprise tothem.
They decided to publish the original version, agreeing that it was betterthan the cut one.
You now have in your hands the original version of Stranger in a StrangeLand, as written by Robert Anson Heinlein.
The given names of the chief characters have great importance to the plot.
They were carefully selected: Jubal means .the father of all,“ Michael standsfor ,fake chanel bags.Who is like God?“ I leave it for the reader to find out what the othernames mean. -Virginia Heinlein Carmel, California
Chapter 1
ONCE UPON A TIME when the world was young there was a Martiannamed Smith.
Valentine Michael Smith was as real as taxes but he was a race of one.
The first human expedition from Terra to Mars was selected on the theorythat the greatest danger to man in space was man himself. At that time, onlyeight Terran years after the founding of the first human colony on Luna,foamposite for cheap, anyinterplanetary trip made by humans necessarily had to be made in wearyfree-fail orbits, doubly tangent semi-ellipses—from Terra to Mars, twohundred fifty-eight days, the same for the return journey, plus four hundredfifty-five days waiting at Mars while the two planets crawled slowly back intorelative positions which would permit shaping the doubly-tangent orbit-a totalof almost three Earth years.
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But the physical danger was judged to be less important than thepsychological stresses. Eight humans, crowded together like monkeys foralmost three Terran years, had
They decided to publish the original version, agreeing that it was betterthan the cut one.
You now have in your hands the original version of Stranger in a StrangeLand, as written by Robert Anson Heinlein.
The given names of the chief characters have great importance to the plot.
They were carefully selected: Jubal means .the father of all,“ Michael standsfor ,fake chanel bags.Who is like God?“ I leave it for the reader to find out what the othernames mean. -Virginia Heinlein Carmel, California
Chapter 1
ONCE UPON A TIME when the world was young there was a Martiannamed Smith.
Valentine Michael Smith was as real as taxes but he was a race of one.
The first human expedition from Terra to Mars was selected on the theorythat the greatest danger to man in space was man himself. At that time, onlyeight Terran years after the founding of the first human colony on Luna,foamposite for cheap, anyinterplanetary trip made by humans necessarily had to be made in wearyfree-fail orbits, doubly tangent semi-ellipses—from Terra to Mars, twohundred fifty-eight days, the same for the return journey, plus four hundredfifty-five days waiting at Mars while the two planets crawled slowly back intorelative positions which would permit shaping the doubly-tangent orbit-a totalof almost three Earth years.
Besides its wearing length,Link, the trip was very chancy. Only by refueling at aspace station, then tacking back almost into Earth’s atmosphere, could thisprimitive flying coffin, the Envoy, make the trip at all. Once at Mars she mightbe able to return-if she did not crash in landing, if water could be found onMan to fill her reaction-mass tanks,cheap foamposites, if some sort of food could be found onMars, if a thousand other things did not go wrong.
But the physical danger was judged to be less important than thepsychological stresses. Eight humans, crowded together like monkeys foralmost three Terran years, had
Monday, December 17, 2012
And now I speak of thanking God
And now I speak of thanking God, I desire with all humility to acknowledge that I owe the mentioned happiness of my past life to His kind providence, which lead me to the means I used and gave them success. My belief of this induces me to hope, though I must not presume, that the same goodness will still be exercised toward me, in continuing that happiness,nike high heels, or enabling me to bear a fatal reverse, which I may experience as others have done: the complexion of my future fortune being known to Him only in whose power it is to bless to us even our afflictions.
The notes one of my uncles (who had the same kind of curiosity in collecting family anecdotes) once put into my hands, furnished me with several particulars relating to our ancestors. From these notes I learned that the family had lived in the same village, Ecton, in Northamptonshire, for three hundred years, and how much longer he knew not (perhaps from the time when the name of Franklin, that before was the name of an order of people, was assumed by them as a surname when others took surnames all over the kingdom), on a freehold of about thirty acres, aided by the smith's business, which had continued in the family till his time, the eldest son being always bred to that business; a custom which he and my father followed as to their eldest sons. When I searched the registers at Ecton, I found an account of their births, marriages and burials from the year 1555 only, there being no registers kept in that parish at any time preceding. By that register I perceived that I was the youngest son of the youngest son for five generations back. My grandfather Thomas, who was born in 1598, lived at Ecton till he grew too old to follow business longer, when he went to live with his son John, a dyer at Banbury, in Oxfordshire, with whom my father served an apprenticeship. There my grandfather died and lies buried. We saw his gravestone in 1758. His eldest son Thomas lived in the house at Ecton, and left it with the land to his only child, a daughter, who, with her husband, one Fisher, of Wellingborough,HOMEPAGE, sold it to Mr. Isted, now lord of the manor there. My grandfather had four sons that grew up, viz.: Thomas, John, Benjamin and Josiah. I will give you what account I can of them, at this distance from my papers, and if these are not lost in my absence, you will among them find many more particulars.
Thomas was bred a smith under his father; but, being ingenious, and encouraged in learning (as all my brothers were) by an Esquire Palmer, then the principal gentleman in that parish, he qualified himself for the business of scrivener; became a considerable man in the county,adidas shoes for girls; was a chief mover of all public-spirited undertakings for the county or town of Northampton, and his own village, of which many instances were related of him; and much taken notice of and patronized by the then Lord Halifax.
He died in 17O2, January 6, old style, just four years to a day before I was born. The account we received of his life and character from some old people at Ecton, I remember, struck you as something extraordinary,Homepage, from its similarity to what you knew of mine.
The notes one of my uncles (who had the same kind of curiosity in collecting family anecdotes) once put into my hands, furnished me with several particulars relating to our ancestors. From these notes I learned that the family had lived in the same village, Ecton, in Northamptonshire, for three hundred years, and how much longer he knew not (perhaps from the time when the name of Franklin, that before was the name of an order of people, was assumed by them as a surname when others took surnames all over the kingdom), on a freehold of about thirty acres, aided by the smith's business, which had continued in the family till his time, the eldest son being always bred to that business; a custom which he and my father followed as to their eldest sons. When I searched the registers at Ecton, I found an account of their births, marriages and burials from the year 1555 only, there being no registers kept in that parish at any time preceding. By that register I perceived that I was the youngest son of the youngest son for five generations back. My grandfather Thomas, who was born in 1598, lived at Ecton till he grew too old to follow business longer, when he went to live with his son John, a dyer at Banbury, in Oxfordshire, with whom my father served an apprenticeship. There my grandfather died and lies buried. We saw his gravestone in 1758. His eldest son Thomas lived in the house at Ecton, and left it with the land to his only child, a daughter, who, with her husband, one Fisher, of Wellingborough,HOMEPAGE, sold it to Mr. Isted, now lord of the manor there. My grandfather had four sons that grew up, viz.: Thomas, John, Benjamin and Josiah. I will give you what account I can of them, at this distance from my papers, and if these are not lost in my absence, you will among them find many more particulars.
Thomas was bred a smith under his father; but, being ingenious, and encouraged in learning (as all my brothers were) by an Esquire Palmer, then the principal gentleman in that parish, he qualified himself for the business of scrivener; became a considerable man in the county,adidas shoes for girls; was a chief mover of all public-spirited undertakings for the county or town of Northampton, and his own village, of which many instances were related of him; and much taken notice of and patronized by the then Lord Halifax.
He died in 17O2, January 6, old style, just four years to a day before I was born. The account we received of his life and character from some old people at Ecton, I remember, struck you as something extraordinary,Homepage, from its similarity to what you knew of mine.
Saturday, December 15, 2012
May was an interesting month
May was an interesting month, and valuable for my continuing political education. On the fifth, I awarded my first Presidential Medal of Freedom to my old mentor Senator Fulbright on his eighty-eighth birthday. Al Gores father was at the ceremony, and when he reminded Fulbright that he himself was only eighty-five, Fulbright replied, Albert, if you behave yourself, youll make it, too. I admired both men for what theyd done for America; I wondered if I would live as long as they had; if so, I hoped I could wear the years as well.
In the third week of the month, I went to California to emphasize the investments in the economic plan for education and inner-city development at a town hall meeting in San Diego, a community college in Van Nuys with a large Hispanic enrollment, and a sporting-goods store in South Central Los Angeles where the riots had occurred a year earlier. I especially enjoyed the last event. The athletic store, called the Playground, had a basketball court out back, which had become a gathering place for young people. Ron Brown was with me, and we took some of the kids and played each other in an impromptu basketball game, after which I talked about the potential of empowerment zones to create more successful businesses like the Playground in poor communities all across America. Im pretty sure this was the first time a President ever played basketball with inner-city kids in their backyard, and I hoped that pictures of the game would send a message to America about the new administrations priorities, and to young people in particular that I cared about them and their futures.
Unfortunately, most Americans never heard about the basketball game because I got a haircut. I hadnt found a barber in Washington yet; I couldnt go back to Arkansas every three weeks to see Jim Miles, and my hair was too long. Hillary had had her hair done by a man in Los Angeles, Cristophe Schatteman, who was a friend of the Thomasons and whom I liked very much. I asked Cristophe if he would be willing to give me a quick trim. He agreed to do it and met me in my private quarters on Air Force One. Before we started, I asked the Secret Service not once, but twice, to make sure I wouldnt cause any delay in takeoffs or landings if I put off our departure for a few minutes. They checked with the airport personnel, who said it would be no problem. Then I asked Cristophe just to make me presentable as quickly as possible. He did, in ten minutes or so, and we took off.
The next thing I knew, there was a story out that I had kept two runways tied up for an hour, inconveniencing thousands of people, while I got a $200 haircut from a fancy hairdresser who was known only by his first name. Forget the basketball game with inner-city kids; the irresistible news was that I had shed my Arkansas roots and populist politics for an expensive indulgence. It was a great story, but it wasnt true. First of all, I didnt pay $200 for the ten-minute trim. Second, I didnt keep anybody waiting to take off or land, as the Federal Aviation Administration records showed when they were finally released a few weeks later. I was appalled that anyone would think Id do such a thing. I might have been President, but Mother would still have given me a whipping if Id kept a lot of people waiting an hour while I got a haircut, much less a $200 one.
In the third week of the month, I went to California to emphasize the investments in the economic plan for education and inner-city development at a town hall meeting in San Diego, a community college in Van Nuys with a large Hispanic enrollment, and a sporting-goods store in South Central Los Angeles where the riots had occurred a year earlier. I especially enjoyed the last event. The athletic store, called the Playground, had a basketball court out back, which had become a gathering place for young people. Ron Brown was with me, and we took some of the kids and played each other in an impromptu basketball game, after which I talked about the potential of empowerment zones to create more successful businesses like the Playground in poor communities all across America. Im pretty sure this was the first time a President ever played basketball with inner-city kids in their backyard, and I hoped that pictures of the game would send a message to America about the new administrations priorities, and to young people in particular that I cared about them and their futures.
Unfortunately, most Americans never heard about the basketball game because I got a haircut. I hadnt found a barber in Washington yet; I couldnt go back to Arkansas every three weeks to see Jim Miles, and my hair was too long. Hillary had had her hair done by a man in Los Angeles, Cristophe Schatteman, who was a friend of the Thomasons and whom I liked very much. I asked Cristophe if he would be willing to give me a quick trim. He agreed to do it and met me in my private quarters on Air Force One. Before we started, I asked the Secret Service not once, but twice, to make sure I wouldnt cause any delay in takeoffs or landings if I put off our departure for a few minutes. They checked with the airport personnel, who said it would be no problem. Then I asked Cristophe just to make me presentable as quickly as possible. He did, in ten minutes or so, and we took off.
The next thing I knew, there was a story out that I had kept two runways tied up for an hour, inconveniencing thousands of people, while I got a $200 haircut from a fancy hairdresser who was known only by his first name. Forget the basketball game with inner-city kids; the irresistible news was that I had shed my Arkansas roots and populist politics for an expensive indulgence. It was a great story, but it wasnt true. First of all, I didnt pay $200 for the ten-minute trim. Second, I didnt keep anybody waiting to take off or land, as the Federal Aviation Administration records showed when they were finally released a few weeks later. I was appalled that anyone would think Id do such a thing. I might have been President, but Mother would still have given me a whipping if Id kept a lot of people waiting an hour while I got a haircut, much less a $200 one.
Chapter 31 T he next year involved an amazing combination of major legislative achievements
Chapter 31
T he next year involved an amazing combination of major legislative achievements, frustrations and successes in foreign policy, unforeseen events, personal tragedy, honest errors, and clumsy violations of the Washington culture, which, when combined with compulsive leaking by a few staffers, ensured press coverage that often resembled what Id experienced during the New York primary.
On January 22, we announced that Zo Baird had withdrawn her name from consideration for attorney general. Since we had learned about her employment of illegal immigrant workers and her failure to pay Social Security taxes for them during the vetting process, I had to say that we had failed to evaluate the matter properly, and that I, not she, was responsible for the situation. Zo had not misled us in any way. When the household workers were hired, she had just gotten a new job, and her husband had the summer off from teaching. Apparently, each assumed the other had handled the tax matter. I believed her and kept working for her nomination for three weeks after she first offered to withdraw it. Later, I appointed Zo to the Foreign Intelligence Advisory Board, where she made a real contribution to the work Admiral Crowes group did.
On the same day, the press became infuriated with the new White House when we denied them the privilege, which theyd had for years, of walking from the press room, located between the West Wing and the residence, up to the press secretarys office on the first floor near the Cabinet Room. This strolling allowed them to hang out in the halls and pepper whoever came by with questions. Apparently, a couple of people high up in the Bush administration had mentioned to their new counterparts that this arrangement impeded efficiency and increased leaks, and the decision was made to change it. I dont recall being consulted about it, but perhaps I was. The press raised the roof, but we stuck with the decision, figuring theyd get over it. Theres no question that the new policy contributed to freer movement and conversation among the staff, but its hard to say it was worth the animosity it engendered. And since, in the first few months, the White House leaked worse than a tar-paper shack with holes in the roof and gaps in the walls, its impossible to say that confining the press to quarters did much good.
That afternoon, the anniversary of Roe v. Wade, I issued executive orders ending the Reagan-Bush ban on fetal-tissue research; abolishing the so-called Mexico City rule, which prohibited federal aid to international planning agencies that were in any way involved in abortions; and reversing the Bush gag rule barring abortion counseling at family planning clinics that receive federal funds. I had pledged to take these actions in the campaign, and I believed in them. Fetal-tissue research was essential to finding better treatments for Parkinsons disease, diabetes, and other conditions. The Mexico City rule arguably led to more abortions, by reducing the availability of information on alternative family planning measures. And the gag rule used federal funds to prevent family planning clinics from telling pregnant womenoften frightened, young, and aloneabout an option the Supreme Court had declared a constitutional right. Federal funds still could not be used to fund abortions, at home or abroad.
T he next year involved an amazing combination of major legislative achievements, frustrations and successes in foreign policy, unforeseen events, personal tragedy, honest errors, and clumsy violations of the Washington culture, which, when combined with compulsive leaking by a few staffers, ensured press coverage that often resembled what Id experienced during the New York primary.
On January 22, we announced that Zo Baird had withdrawn her name from consideration for attorney general. Since we had learned about her employment of illegal immigrant workers and her failure to pay Social Security taxes for them during the vetting process, I had to say that we had failed to evaluate the matter properly, and that I, not she, was responsible for the situation. Zo had not misled us in any way. When the household workers were hired, she had just gotten a new job, and her husband had the summer off from teaching. Apparently, each assumed the other had handled the tax matter. I believed her and kept working for her nomination for three weeks after she first offered to withdraw it. Later, I appointed Zo to the Foreign Intelligence Advisory Board, where she made a real contribution to the work Admiral Crowes group did.
On the same day, the press became infuriated with the new White House when we denied them the privilege, which theyd had for years, of walking from the press room, located between the West Wing and the residence, up to the press secretarys office on the first floor near the Cabinet Room. This strolling allowed them to hang out in the halls and pepper whoever came by with questions. Apparently, a couple of people high up in the Bush administration had mentioned to their new counterparts that this arrangement impeded efficiency and increased leaks, and the decision was made to change it. I dont recall being consulted about it, but perhaps I was. The press raised the roof, but we stuck with the decision, figuring theyd get over it. Theres no question that the new policy contributed to freer movement and conversation among the staff, but its hard to say it was worth the animosity it engendered. And since, in the first few months, the White House leaked worse than a tar-paper shack with holes in the roof and gaps in the walls, its impossible to say that confining the press to quarters did much good.
That afternoon, the anniversary of Roe v. Wade, I issued executive orders ending the Reagan-Bush ban on fetal-tissue research; abolishing the so-called Mexico City rule, which prohibited federal aid to international planning agencies that were in any way involved in abortions; and reversing the Bush gag rule barring abortion counseling at family planning clinics that receive federal funds. I had pledged to take these actions in the campaign, and I believed in them. Fetal-tissue research was essential to finding better treatments for Parkinsons disease, diabetes, and other conditions. The Mexico City rule arguably led to more abortions, by reducing the availability of information on alternative family planning measures. And the gag rule used federal funds to prevent family planning clinics from telling pregnant womenoften frightened, young, and aloneabout an option the Supreme Court had declared a constitutional right. Federal funds still could not be used to fund abortions, at home or abroad.
Saturday, December 8, 2012
我希望您直呼我的教名
“霍尔太太,我希望您直呼我的教名。”
“好的,就这样吧。但是艾达和吉蒂,你们可不行。”
“我希望艾达和吉蒂也这么叫。”
“那么,克莱夫!”吉蒂说。
“那么,吉蒂!”
“克莱夫。”
“艾达——这么叫多好啊。”然而,他的脸颊羞红了。“我讨厌拘泥于形式。”
“我也是这样。”姑娘们异口同声地说。“我对任何人的看法都毫不在乎——一向如此。”边说边用率直的眼神盯着他。
“莫瑞斯可不然,”霍尔太太说,“他挑剔得很。”
“莫瑞斯这个人实在不足取——畦,你把我的头弄疼啦。”
“哇,畦。”艾达仿效他说。
电话铃响了。
“他在公司里收到了你的电报,”吉蒂大声报告,“他问你在不在这儿。”
“告诉他我在。”
“那么,今天晚上他就回来。现在他想跟你说话。”
克莱夫拿起听筒,然而只传来了嗡嗡声,电话挂断了。他们不知道莫瑞斯在哪儿,所以无法给他打过去。克莱夫松了一口气,因为现实的逼近使他感到惊慌,被缠上绷带给他带来了很大的快乐。他的朋友很快就到了。现在艾达朝他俯下身来,他瞅见了自己所熟悉的容貌,在后面的灯光映衬下平添了几分魅力,http://www.cheapnorthfacedownjacket.com/。他将视线从她那深色头发和眼睛移向没有阴影的嘴巴和身体的曲线,并在她身上找到了转变感情的时候恰好需要的一切。他见过更性感的女人们,但没有一个女人向他许诺过这样的安宁。她是回忆与欲望达成的和解,她是希腊所从未知晓的恬静的傍晚。什么争论都跟她不沾边,因为她是和善的,把过去与现在调和起来。他从未料想过还有这样的人,除非是在天堂里,而他是不相信天堂的。突然,很多事都变得可能了。他躺在那儿,朝她的眼睛望着,他的几缕希望在里面有所反映。他知道能够使她爱上自己,这样一来他身上就点燃起文火。多么美好啊,于愿已足,他唯一焦虑的是莫瑞斯会回家来,因为回忆就应该终属回忆。每逢有什么响动,当别人跑出屋子去看是不是汽车到了的时候,他就把她留下来陪自己。她很快就明白了他的愿望,不等他发话就留在他身边了。
“你简直不知道待在英国有多么好!”他猛然说。
“难道希腊不可爱吗?”
“可怕。”
她感到忧伤,克莱夫也叹了口气。他们的目光相遇了。
“我觉得很难过,克莱夫。”
“哦,事情已经过去了。”
“确切地说,到底是……”
“艾达,是这么回事。在希腊逗留期间,我不得不彻头彻尾地重建自己的人生。谈何容易,可我认为我已经完成了。”
“我们经常谈论你。莫瑞斯说你会喜爱希腊的。”
“莫瑞斯还蒙在鼓里呢,谁知道的也没有你多!我对你比对任何人说的都多。你能守口如瓶吗?”
“当然喽。”
克莱夫不知所措了,这番谈话变得棘手了。然而艾达一点儿也没有期望继续说下去,能够跟她所天真地钦佩的克莱夫单独待在一起就足够了。她告诉他,他回来了,她甭提有多么高兴了。他热烈地表示同意,“尤其是回到这儿来”。
“汽车!”吉蒂尖声呼叫起来。
“别去!”克莱夫边抓住艾达的手,边重复了一遍。
“我必须去……莫瑞斯……”
“莫瑞斯嘛,管他呢。”他不肯松手。从门厅里传来了一片喧哗声。“他到哪儿去了?”他的朋友正在吼叫。“你们把他安顿在哪儿了?”
“艾达,明天和我去散步吧。多跟我见见面。……一言为定。”
她的哥哥冲进来了。他瞧见绷带,以为出了事故,知道自己弄错了以后又大笑起来。“快摘掉吧,克莱夫。你为什么听任她们摆布?我说,他气色蛮好。你看上去挺健康。老兄,过去喝一杯吧。我替你解下绷带,不,姑娘们,你们不行。”克莱犬跟着莫瑞斯走出去之际转过身来,只见艾达朝他几乎察觉不出地点了点头。
身穿毛皮大衣的莫瑞斯活像一头巨兽。离开旁人后,他立即脱下大衣,笑眯眯地踱过来。“那么,你不爱我了吗?”他提出疑问。
“这一切等明天再谈吧。”克莱夫边避开他的目光边说。
“知道了。来一杯。”
“莫瑞斯,我不愿意争吵。”
“我愿意。”
他摆摆手,不肯接递过来的那杯酒。这场风暴注定要爆发了。“可你不应该用这种口吻跟我说话,”他接着说,“这会使我越来越困难。”
“我就是要争吵,我非要争吵不可,Moncler Outlet Online Store。”他按照最初那个时期的样子走过来,将一只手插进克莱夫的头发。“坐下来。哟,你为什么给我写那样一封信?”
克莱夫没有回答,他更加沮丧地望着这张自己一度爱过的脸。对男性的嫌恶重新浮上心头,他想知道,倘若莫瑞斯试图拥抱他,会发生什么事呢?
“为什么?啊?现在你已经康复了,告诉我。”
“你离开我的椅子,我就说。”于是他开始讲预先准备好的一席话。它是有条理的,不牵涉个人感情的,对莫瑞斯的伤害会最轻微。“我变得正常了——跟别人一样,我也不知道是怎样变的,正如我不知道自己是怎么出生的一样。这是不合乎情理的,我并不希望如此。你愿意问什么就问吧。我是为了回答你才到这儿来的。因为我在信里不可能详尽地写。然而我在信中写的是真实的。”
“你说是真实的?”
“当时是真实的,现在也是。”
“你说你只喜欢女人,而不是男人?”
“在真正的意义上,我对男人是喜欢的,莫瑞斯,今后也一直会喜欢。”
“一切都来得这么突然。”
他的态度也是冷漠的,但他没离开克莱夫的椅子。他的手指仍停留在克莱夫的头上,抚摩着绷带。他的情绪从快活变成宁静的关切。他既没生气,cheap jeremy scott adidas wings,也不害怕,一心一意只想把朋友治好。克莱夫满腔厌恶,他领悟到,两个人所取得的爱的胜利行将崩溃,人心该有多脆弱,多么充满讽刺意味。
“是谁使你发生变化的?”
他讨厌这种讯问的方式。“谁都没让我变。这仅仅是生理上的变化。”他开始诉说自己的体验。
“显然是那个护士。”莫瑞斯若有所思地说,“你要是及早告诉我就好了。……我东想西想,然而没料到是这个。保密是不对的,弄得越来越糟。就应该说啊,说啊,说啊。只要有能够彼此倾吐衷曲的人就行。咱们两个完全是这样的。倘若你告诉了我,这会儿你早就没事了。”
“为什么呢?”
“因为我会使你恢复正常的。”
“怎样恢复?”
“你等着瞧吧。”他微笑着说。
“一点儿用处也没有——我已经变了。”
“难道豹子能够把身上的斑点变掉吗?克莱夫,你的头脑糊涂了,这跟你刚生过一场病也有关系。如今我不再担心了,因为其他方面你已经康复了,HOMEPAGE。看上去你还很高兴,这个问题也会迎刃而解。我明白你是生怕我会感到痛苦,所以不敢告诉我。但是咱们两个人之间还用得着客气吗?你应该跟我说一声就好了。要不是为了你,我为什么待在这儿?其他任何人你都不信任。你和我是不法之徒。倘若世人知道了,这一切,”他边说边指着室内那些为中产阶级提供舒适生活的摆设,“全都会被没收。”
克莱夫烦闷地说:“然而我已经变了,我已经变了。”
我们只能凭借自己的体验来理解。莫瑞斯明白什么是糊涂,却不明白变了是怎么回事。“你只是认为自己变了而已。”他,笑吟吟地说。“当奥尔科特小姐在这儿的时候,我常常认为自个儿变了,然而我一回到你身边,那种感觉就统统消失了。”
“我了解自己的心境,”克莱夫边说边激动起来,起身离开了椅子。“我一向跟你不同。”
“现在一样了。你还记得吗?我曾经怎样假装……”
“我当然记得了,别这么孩子气。”
“咱们两个人相互爱着,自己也知道。那么,另外还有什么……”
“哦,看在上帝的分上,莫瑞斯,你给我住口!倘若我爱什么人的话,就是艾达。”他补充说,“我只是作为一个例子随便提到她的。”
然而,莫瑞斯倒是能够理解什么叫做例子。“艾达?”他说,连腔调都变了。
“仅仅是向你表明某一种感情。”
“你几乎不了解艾达啊。”
“我也不了解我那位护士,以及我提到过的其他一些女人。正如我刚才说过的,并不是特定的什么人,只是一种倾向而已。”
“好的,就这样吧。但是艾达和吉蒂,你们可不行。”
“我希望艾达和吉蒂也这么叫。”
“那么,克莱夫!”吉蒂说。
“那么,吉蒂!”
“克莱夫。”
“艾达——这么叫多好啊。”然而,他的脸颊羞红了。“我讨厌拘泥于形式。”
“我也是这样。”姑娘们异口同声地说。“我对任何人的看法都毫不在乎——一向如此。”边说边用率直的眼神盯着他。
“莫瑞斯可不然,”霍尔太太说,“他挑剔得很。”
“莫瑞斯这个人实在不足取——畦,你把我的头弄疼啦。”
“哇,畦。”艾达仿效他说。
电话铃响了。
“他在公司里收到了你的电报,”吉蒂大声报告,“他问你在不在这儿。”
“告诉他我在。”
“那么,今天晚上他就回来。现在他想跟你说话。”
克莱夫拿起听筒,然而只传来了嗡嗡声,电话挂断了。他们不知道莫瑞斯在哪儿,所以无法给他打过去。克莱夫松了一口气,因为现实的逼近使他感到惊慌,被缠上绷带给他带来了很大的快乐。他的朋友很快就到了。现在艾达朝他俯下身来,他瞅见了自己所熟悉的容貌,在后面的灯光映衬下平添了几分魅力,http://www.cheapnorthfacedownjacket.com/。他将视线从她那深色头发和眼睛移向没有阴影的嘴巴和身体的曲线,并在她身上找到了转变感情的时候恰好需要的一切。他见过更性感的女人们,但没有一个女人向他许诺过这样的安宁。她是回忆与欲望达成的和解,她是希腊所从未知晓的恬静的傍晚。什么争论都跟她不沾边,因为她是和善的,把过去与现在调和起来。他从未料想过还有这样的人,除非是在天堂里,而他是不相信天堂的。突然,很多事都变得可能了。他躺在那儿,朝她的眼睛望着,他的几缕希望在里面有所反映。他知道能够使她爱上自己,这样一来他身上就点燃起文火。多么美好啊,于愿已足,他唯一焦虑的是莫瑞斯会回家来,因为回忆就应该终属回忆。每逢有什么响动,当别人跑出屋子去看是不是汽车到了的时候,他就把她留下来陪自己。她很快就明白了他的愿望,不等他发话就留在他身边了。
“你简直不知道待在英国有多么好!”他猛然说。
“难道希腊不可爱吗?”
“可怕。”
她感到忧伤,克莱夫也叹了口气。他们的目光相遇了。
“我觉得很难过,克莱夫。”
“哦,事情已经过去了。”
“确切地说,到底是……”
“艾达,是这么回事。在希腊逗留期间,我不得不彻头彻尾地重建自己的人生。谈何容易,可我认为我已经完成了。”
“我们经常谈论你。莫瑞斯说你会喜爱希腊的。”
“莫瑞斯还蒙在鼓里呢,谁知道的也没有你多!我对你比对任何人说的都多。你能守口如瓶吗?”
“当然喽。”
克莱夫不知所措了,这番谈话变得棘手了。然而艾达一点儿也没有期望继续说下去,能够跟她所天真地钦佩的克莱夫单独待在一起就足够了。她告诉他,他回来了,她甭提有多么高兴了。他热烈地表示同意,“尤其是回到这儿来”。
“汽车!”吉蒂尖声呼叫起来。
“别去!”克莱夫边抓住艾达的手,边重复了一遍。
“我必须去……莫瑞斯……”
“莫瑞斯嘛,管他呢。”他不肯松手。从门厅里传来了一片喧哗声。“他到哪儿去了?”他的朋友正在吼叫。“你们把他安顿在哪儿了?”
“艾达,明天和我去散步吧。多跟我见见面。……一言为定。”
她的哥哥冲进来了。他瞧见绷带,以为出了事故,知道自己弄错了以后又大笑起来。“快摘掉吧,克莱夫。你为什么听任她们摆布?我说,他气色蛮好。你看上去挺健康。老兄,过去喝一杯吧。我替你解下绷带,不,姑娘们,你们不行。”克莱犬跟着莫瑞斯走出去之际转过身来,只见艾达朝他几乎察觉不出地点了点头。
身穿毛皮大衣的莫瑞斯活像一头巨兽。离开旁人后,他立即脱下大衣,笑眯眯地踱过来。“那么,你不爱我了吗?”他提出疑问。
“这一切等明天再谈吧。”克莱夫边避开他的目光边说。
“知道了。来一杯。”
“莫瑞斯,我不愿意争吵。”
“我愿意。”
他摆摆手,不肯接递过来的那杯酒。这场风暴注定要爆发了。“可你不应该用这种口吻跟我说话,”他接着说,“这会使我越来越困难。”
“我就是要争吵,我非要争吵不可,Moncler Outlet Online Store。”他按照最初那个时期的样子走过来,将一只手插进克莱夫的头发。“坐下来。哟,你为什么给我写那样一封信?”
克莱夫没有回答,他更加沮丧地望着这张自己一度爱过的脸。对男性的嫌恶重新浮上心头,他想知道,倘若莫瑞斯试图拥抱他,会发生什么事呢?
“为什么?啊?现在你已经康复了,告诉我。”
“你离开我的椅子,我就说。”于是他开始讲预先准备好的一席话。它是有条理的,不牵涉个人感情的,对莫瑞斯的伤害会最轻微。“我变得正常了——跟别人一样,我也不知道是怎样变的,正如我不知道自己是怎么出生的一样。这是不合乎情理的,我并不希望如此。你愿意问什么就问吧。我是为了回答你才到这儿来的。因为我在信里不可能详尽地写。然而我在信中写的是真实的。”
“你说是真实的?”
“当时是真实的,现在也是。”
“你说你只喜欢女人,而不是男人?”
“在真正的意义上,我对男人是喜欢的,莫瑞斯,今后也一直会喜欢。”
“一切都来得这么突然。”
他的态度也是冷漠的,但他没离开克莱夫的椅子。他的手指仍停留在克莱夫的头上,抚摩着绷带。他的情绪从快活变成宁静的关切。他既没生气,cheap jeremy scott adidas wings,也不害怕,一心一意只想把朋友治好。克莱夫满腔厌恶,他领悟到,两个人所取得的爱的胜利行将崩溃,人心该有多脆弱,多么充满讽刺意味。
“是谁使你发生变化的?”
他讨厌这种讯问的方式。“谁都没让我变。这仅仅是生理上的变化。”他开始诉说自己的体验。
“显然是那个护士。”莫瑞斯若有所思地说,“你要是及早告诉我就好了。……我东想西想,然而没料到是这个。保密是不对的,弄得越来越糟。就应该说啊,说啊,说啊。只要有能够彼此倾吐衷曲的人就行。咱们两个完全是这样的。倘若你告诉了我,这会儿你早就没事了。”
“为什么呢?”
“因为我会使你恢复正常的。”
“怎样恢复?”
“你等着瞧吧。”他微笑着说。
“一点儿用处也没有——我已经变了。”
“难道豹子能够把身上的斑点变掉吗?克莱夫,你的头脑糊涂了,这跟你刚生过一场病也有关系。如今我不再担心了,因为其他方面你已经康复了,HOMEPAGE。看上去你还很高兴,这个问题也会迎刃而解。我明白你是生怕我会感到痛苦,所以不敢告诉我。但是咱们两个人之间还用得着客气吗?你应该跟我说一声就好了。要不是为了你,我为什么待在这儿?其他任何人你都不信任。你和我是不法之徒。倘若世人知道了,这一切,”他边说边指着室内那些为中产阶级提供舒适生活的摆设,“全都会被没收。”
克莱夫烦闷地说:“然而我已经变了,我已经变了。”
我们只能凭借自己的体验来理解。莫瑞斯明白什么是糊涂,却不明白变了是怎么回事。“你只是认为自己变了而已。”他,笑吟吟地说。“当奥尔科特小姐在这儿的时候,我常常认为自个儿变了,然而我一回到你身边,那种感觉就统统消失了。”
“我了解自己的心境,”克莱夫边说边激动起来,起身离开了椅子。“我一向跟你不同。”
“现在一样了。你还记得吗?我曾经怎样假装……”
“我当然记得了,别这么孩子气。”
“咱们两个人相互爱着,自己也知道。那么,另外还有什么……”
“哦,看在上帝的分上,莫瑞斯,你给我住口!倘若我爱什么人的话,就是艾达。”他补充说,“我只是作为一个例子随便提到她的。”
然而,莫瑞斯倒是能够理解什么叫做例子。“艾达?”他说,连腔调都变了。
“仅仅是向你表明某一种感情。”
“你几乎不了解艾达啊。”
“我也不了解我那位护士,以及我提到过的其他一些女人。正如我刚才说过的,并不是特定的什么人,只是一种倾向而已。”
They began to spend their days up there and they all always ate together at a little restaurant oppo
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Salmon and Guillaume Apollinaire both lived in Montmarte in these days. Salmon was very lithe and alive but Gertrude Stein never found him particularly interesting. She liked him. Guillaume Apollinaire on the contrary was very wonderful. There was just about that time, that is about the time when Gertrude Stein first knew Apollinaire, the excitement of a duel that he was to fight with another writer. Fernande and Pablo told about it with so much excitement and so much laughter and so much Montmartre slang, this was in the early days of their acquaintance, that she was always a little vague about just what did happen. But the gist of the matter was that Guillaume challenged the other man and Max Jacob was to be the second and witness for Guillaume,cheap jeremy scott adidas wings. Guillaume and his antagonist each sat in their favourite café all day and waited while their seconds went to and fro. How it all ended Gertrude Stein does not know except that nobody fought, but the great excitement was the bill each second and witness brought to his principal. In these was itemised each time they had a cup of coffee and of course they had to have a cup of coffee every time they sat down at one or other café with one or other principal, and again when the two seconds sat with each other. There was also the question under what circumstances were they under the absolute necessity of having a glass of brandy with the cup of coffee. And how often would they have had coffee if they had not been seconds. All this led to endless meetings and endless discussion and endless additional items. It lasted for days, perhaps weeks and months and whether anybody finally was paid, even the café keeper, nobody knows. It was notorious that Apollinaire was parted with the very greatest difficulty from even the smallest piece of money,cheap north face down jacket. It was all very absorbing.
Apollinaire was very attractive and very interesting. He had a head like one of the late roman emperors. He had a brother whom one heard about but never saw. He worked in a bank and therefore he was reasonably well dressed. When anybody in Montmartre had to go anywhere where they had to be conventionally clothed, either to see a relation or attend to a business matter,Moncler Outlet, they always wore a piece of a suit that belonged to the brother of Guillaume.
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Wednesday, December 5, 2012
“Are you going to complain about this until we graduate
“Are you going to complain about this until we graduate?”
Zephyr asked. “Because if that’s the case, then I’m taking matters into my own hands.”
What if her father knocked on the door right now,Link? What if anyone, even Zephyr, found out that she was doing stuff like this?
Maybe it wasn’t relief she was feeling, but shame. Both made you burn from the inside out.
“So, do you want my help?” Zephyr asked.
Trixie clapped her hand over the cut, stanching the flow.
“Hello?” Zephyr said. “Are you still there,Moncler Outlet?”
Trixie lifted her hand. The blood was rich and bright against her palm. “Yeah,” she sighed. “I guess I am.”
“Good timing,” Daniel said, as he heard Trixie’s footsteps pounding down the stairs. He set two plates on the kitchen table and turned around to find her waiting in her coat, carrying a backpack. Her cascade of hair spilled out from beneath a striped stocking cap.
“Oh,” she said, blinking at the food. “Zephyr invited me for a sleepover.”
“You can go after you eat.”
Trixie bit her lower lip. “Her mom thinks I’m coming for dinner.”
Daniel had known Zephyr since she was seven. He used to sit in the living room while she and Trixie performed the cheerleading moves they’d made up during an afternoon of play, or lip-synched to the radio, or presented tumbling routines. He could practically still hear them doing a hand-clapping game: The spades go eeny-meeny pop zoombini. . .
Last week, Daniel had walked in with a bag of groceries to find someone unfamiliar in the kitchen, bent over a catalog. Nice ass, he thought, until she straightened and turned out to be Zephyr.
“Hey, Mr. Stone,” she’d said. “Trixie’s in the bathroom.”
She hadn’t noticed that he went red in the face, or that he left the kitchen before his own daughter returned. He sat on the couch with the grocery bag in his hands, the ice cream inside softening against his chest, as he speculated whether there were other fathers out there making the same mistake when they happened upon Trixie.
“Well,” he said now, “I’ll just save the leftovers.” He stood up, fishing for his car keys.
“Oh, that’s okay. I can walk.”
“It’s dark out,” Daniel said.
Trixie met his gaze, challenging. “I think I can manage to get to a house three blocks away. I’m not a baby, Dad.”
Daniel didn’t know what to say. She was a baby, to him. “Then maybe before you go to Zephyrs you could go vote, join the army, and rent us a car,Moncler Jackets For Women... oh, hang on, that’s right. You can’t.”
Trixie rolled her eyes, took off her hat and gloves, and sat down.
“I thought you were eating at Zephyrs.”
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Daniel sank into the chair across from her. He had a sudden flashback of Trixie in ballet class, the two of them struggling to capture her fine hair in a netted bun before the session began. He had always been the sole father present; other men’s wives would rush forward to help him figure out how to secure the bobby pins, how to slick back the bangs with hair spray.
At her first and only ballet performance, Trixie had been the lead reindeer, drawing out the sleigh that held the Sugar Plum Fairy. She wore a white leotard and an antler headband and had a painted red nose. Daniel hadn’t taken his eyes off her, not for any of the three minutes and twenty-two seconds that she stood on that stage.
Zephyr asked. “Because if that’s the case, then I’m taking matters into my own hands.”
What if her father knocked on the door right now,Link? What if anyone, even Zephyr, found out that she was doing stuff like this?
Maybe it wasn’t relief she was feeling, but shame. Both made you burn from the inside out.
“So, do you want my help?” Zephyr asked.
Trixie clapped her hand over the cut, stanching the flow.
“Hello?” Zephyr said. “Are you still there,Moncler Outlet?”
Trixie lifted her hand. The blood was rich and bright against her palm. “Yeah,” she sighed. “I guess I am.”
“Good timing,” Daniel said, as he heard Trixie’s footsteps pounding down the stairs. He set two plates on the kitchen table and turned around to find her waiting in her coat, carrying a backpack. Her cascade of hair spilled out from beneath a striped stocking cap.
“Oh,” she said, blinking at the food. “Zephyr invited me for a sleepover.”
“You can go after you eat.”
Trixie bit her lower lip. “Her mom thinks I’m coming for dinner.”
Daniel had known Zephyr since she was seven. He used to sit in the living room while she and Trixie performed the cheerleading moves they’d made up during an afternoon of play, or lip-synched to the radio, or presented tumbling routines. He could practically still hear them doing a hand-clapping game: The spades go eeny-meeny pop zoombini. . .
Last week, Daniel had walked in with a bag of groceries to find someone unfamiliar in the kitchen, bent over a catalog. Nice ass, he thought, until she straightened and turned out to be Zephyr.
“Hey, Mr. Stone,” she’d said. “Trixie’s in the bathroom.”
She hadn’t noticed that he went red in the face, or that he left the kitchen before his own daughter returned. He sat on the couch with the grocery bag in his hands, the ice cream inside softening against his chest, as he speculated whether there were other fathers out there making the same mistake when they happened upon Trixie.
“Well,” he said now, “I’ll just save the leftovers.” He stood up, fishing for his car keys.
“Oh, that’s okay. I can walk.”
“It’s dark out,” Daniel said.
Trixie met his gaze, challenging. “I think I can manage to get to a house three blocks away. I’m not a baby, Dad.”
Daniel didn’t know what to say. She was a baby, to him. “Then maybe before you go to Zephyrs you could go vote, join the army, and rent us a car,Moncler Jackets For Women... oh, hang on, that’s right. You can’t.”
Trixie rolled her eyes, took off her hat and gloves, and sat down.
“I thought you were eating at Zephyrs.”
“I will,Moncler Sale,” she said. “But I don’t want you to have to eat all by yourself.”
Daniel sank into the chair across from her. He had a sudden flashback of Trixie in ballet class, the two of them struggling to capture her fine hair in a netted bun before the session began. He had always been the sole father present; other men’s wives would rush forward to help him figure out how to secure the bobby pins, how to slick back the bangs with hair spray.
At her first and only ballet performance, Trixie had been the lead reindeer, drawing out the sleigh that held the Sugar Plum Fairy. She wore a white leotard and an antler headband and had a painted red nose. Daniel hadn’t taken his eyes off her, not for any of the three minutes and twenty-two seconds that she stood on that stage.
Meantime Mathieu
Meantime Mathieu, amid his creative work, received Marianne's gay and courageous assistance. And she was not merely a skilful helpmate, taking a share in the general management, keeping the accounts, and watching over the home. She remained both a loving and well-loved spouse, and a mother who nursed, reared, and educated her little ones in order to give them some of her own sense and heart. As Boutan remarked, it is not enough for a woman to have a child; she should also possess healthy moral gifts in order that she may bring it up in creditable fashion. Marianne, for her part, made it her pride to obtain everything from her children by dint of gentleness and grace. She was listened to, obeyed, and worshipped by them, because she was so beautiful, so kind, and so greatly beloved. Her task was scarcely easy, since she had eight children already; but in all things she proceeded in a very orderly fashion, utilizing the elder to watch over the younger ones,cheap jeremy scott adidas wings, giving each a little share of loving authority, and extricating herself from every embarrassment by setting truth and justice above one and all. Blaise and Denis, the twins, who were now sixteen, and Ambroise, who was nearly fourteen, did in a measure escape her authority, being largely in their father's hands. But around her she had the five others--from Rose, who was eleven, to Louise, who was two years old; between them, at intervals of a couple of years, coming Gervais, Claire, and Gregoire. And each time that one flew away, as it were, feeling his wings strong enough for flight, there appeared another to nestle beside her. And it was again a daughter, Madeleine,Moncler Outlet, who came at the expiration of those two years. And when Mathieu saw his wife erect and smiling again, with the dear little girl at her breast, he embraced her passionately and triumphed once again over every sorrow and every pang. Yet another child, yet more wealth and power, yet an additional force born into the world, another field ready for to-morrow's harvest.
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Chapter 13
TWO more years went by, and during those two years Mathieu and Marianne had yet another daughter; and this time, as the family increased, Chantebled also was increased by all the woodland extending eastward of the plateau to the distant farms of Mareuil and Lillebonne. All the northern part of the property was thus acquired: more than five hundred acres of woods, intersected by clearings which roads soon connected together. And those clearings, transformed into pasture-land, watered by the neighboring springs, enabled Mathieu to treble his live-stock and attempt cattle-raising on a large scale. It was the resistless conquest of life, it was fruitfulness spreading in the sunlight, it was labor ever incessantly pursuing its work of creation amid obstacles and suffering, making good all losses, and at each succeeding hour setting more energy, more health, and more joy in the veins of the world.
Tuesday, December 4, 2012
VII The gardens in winter seemed smaller than they had done in full leaf
VII
The gardens in winter seemed smaller than they had done in full leaf. You could see right through them from fence to fence; snow obliterated lawns and beds; the paths were only traceable by bootprints. Major Gordon daily took a handful of broken biscuits to the squirrel and fed him through the bars. One day while he was thus engaged, watching the little creature go through the motions of concealment, cautiously return, grasp the food, jump away and once more perform the mime of digging and covering, he saw Mme,Moncler Outlet Online Store. Kanyi approach down the path. She was carrying a load of brushwood, stooping under it, so that she did not see him until she was quite close. Major Gordon was particularly despondent that day for he had just received a signal for recall. The force was being re-named and reorganized. He was to report as soon as feasible to Bari. Major Gordon was confident that word had come from Belgrade that he was no longer persona grata. He greeted Mme. Kanyi with warm pleasure. “Let me carry that.” “No, please. It is better not.” “I insist.” Mme. Kanyi looked about her. No one was in sight. She let Major Gordon take the load and carry it towards her hut. “You have not gone with the others?” “No, my husband is needed.” “And you don’t wear your greatcoat.” “Not out of doors. I wear it at night in the hut. The coats and boots make everyone hate us, even those who had been kind before.” “But partisan discipline is so firm. Surely there was no danger of violence,cheap adidas shoes for sale?” “No, that was not the trouble. It was the peasants. The partisans are frightened of the peasants,http://www.cheapnorthfacedownjacket.com/. They will settle with them later, but at present they are dependent on them for food. Our people began to exchange things with the peasants. They would give needles and thread, razors,moncler winter outwear jackets, things no one can get, for turkeys and apples. No one wants money. The peasants preferred bartering with our people to taking the partisans’ bank-notes. That was what made the trouble.” “Where have the others gone?” She spoke a name which meant nothing to Major Gordon. “You have not heard of that place? It is twenty miles away. It is where the Germans and Ustashi made a camp. They kept the Jews and gypsies and communists and royalists there, to work on the canal. Before they left they killed what were left of the prisoners—not many. Now the partisans have found new inhabitants for it.” They had reached the hut and Major Gordon entered to place his load in a corner near the little stove. It was the first and last time he crossed the threshold. He had a brief impression of orderly poverty and then was outside in the snow. “Listen, Mme. Kanyi,” he said. “Don’t lose heart. I am being recalled to Bari. As soon as the road is clear I shall be leaving. When I get there I promise I’ll raise Cain about this. You’ve plenty of friends there and I’ll explain the whole situation to them. We’ll get you all out, I promise.” Major Gordon had one further transaction with Mme. Kanyi before his departure. There fell from the heavens one night a huge parcel of assorted literature—the gift of one of the more preposterous organizations which abounded in Bari. This department aimed at re-educating the Balkans by distributing Fortune, The Illustrated London News and handbooks of popular, old-fashioned agnosticism. From time to time during Major Gordon’s tour of duty bundles of this kind had arrived. He had hitherto deposited them in the empty office of the Director of Rest and Culture. On this last occasion, however, he thought of Mme. Kanyi. She had a long, lonely winter ahead of her. She might find something amusing in the pile. So he despatched it to her by one of the widows, who finding her out, left it on the step in the snow. Then within a few days the road to the coast was declared open and Major Gordon laboriously made his way to Split and so to Bari.
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And look what he got
And look what he got, thought Stencil, a little wry, a little shaky.
On the offensive: "Where do you belong, Profane?"
"Wherever I am."
"Deracinated. Which of them is not. Which of this Crew couldn't pick up tomorrow and go off to Malta, go off to the moon. Ask them why and they'll answer why not."
"I could not care less about Valletta." But hadn't there been something after all about the bombed-out buildings, buff-colored rubble, excitement of Kingsway? What had Paola called the island: a cradle of life.
"I have always wanted to be buried at sea," said Profane.
Had Stencil seen the coupling in that associative train he would have gathered heart of grace,moncler winter outwear jackets, surely. But Paola and he had never spoken of Profane. Who, after all, was Profane?
Until now. They decided to rollick off to a party on Jefferson Street.
Next day was Saturday. Early morning found Stencil rushing around to his contacts, informing them all of a third tentative passage.
The third passage, meanwhile, was horribly hung over. His Girl was having more than second thoughts.
"Why do you go to the Spoon, Benny."
"Why not?"
She edged up on one elbow. "That's the first time you've said that."
"You break your cherry on something every day."
Without thinking: "What about love? When are you going to end your virgin status there, Ben?"
In reply Profane fell out of bed, crawled to the bathroom and hung over the toilet, thinking about barfing. Rachel clasped hands in front of one breast, like a concert soprano. "My man." Profane decided instead to make noises at himself in the mirror.
She came up behind him, hair all down and straggly for the night, and set her cheek against his back as Paola had on the Newport News ferry last winter. Profane inspected his teeth.
"Get off my back," he said.
Still holding on: "So. Only smoked pot once and already he's hooked. Is that your monkey talking?"
"It's me talking. Off."
She moved away. "How off is off, Ben." Things were quiet then. Soft, penitent, "If I am hooked on anything it's you, Rachel O." Watching her shifty in the mirror.
"On women," she said, "on what you think love is: take, take. Not on me."
He started brushing his teeth fiercely. In the mirror as she watched there bloomed a great flower of leprous-colored foam, out of his mouth and down both sides of his chin.
"You want to go," she yelled, "go then."
He said something but around the toothbrush and through the foam neither could understand the words.
"You are scared of love and all that means is somebody else," she said. "As long as you don't have to give anything, be held to anything, sure: you can talk about love. Anything you have to talk about isn't real. It's only a way of putting yourself up. And anybody who tries to get through to you - me - down."
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"I don't change. Schlemihls don't change."
On the offensive: "Where do you belong, Profane?"
"Wherever I am."
"Deracinated. Which of them is not. Which of this Crew couldn't pick up tomorrow and go off to Malta, go off to the moon. Ask them why and they'll answer why not."
"I could not care less about Valletta." But hadn't there been something after all about the bombed-out buildings, buff-colored rubble, excitement of Kingsway? What had Paola called the island: a cradle of life.
"I have always wanted to be buried at sea," said Profane.
Had Stencil seen the coupling in that associative train he would have gathered heart of grace,moncler winter outwear jackets, surely. But Paola and he had never spoken of Profane. Who, after all, was Profane?
Until now. They decided to rollick off to a party on Jefferson Street.
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The third passage, meanwhile, was horribly hung over. His Girl was having more than second thoughts.
"Why do you go to the Spoon, Benny."
"Why not?"
She edged up on one elbow. "That's the first time you've said that."
"You break your cherry on something every day."
Without thinking: "What about love? When are you going to end your virgin status there, Ben?"
In reply Profane fell out of bed, crawled to the bathroom and hung over the toilet, thinking about barfing. Rachel clasped hands in front of one breast, like a concert soprano. "My man." Profane decided instead to make noises at himself in the mirror.
She came up behind him, hair all down and straggly for the night, and set her cheek against his back as Paola had on the Newport News ferry last winter. Profane inspected his teeth.
"Get off my back," he said.
Still holding on: "So. Only smoked pot once and already he's hooked. Is that your monkey talking?"
"It's me talking. Off."
She moved away. "How off is off, Ben." Things were quiet then. Soft, penitent, "If I am hooked on anything it's you, Rachel O." Watching her shifty in the mirror.
"On women," she said, "on what you think love is: take, take. Not on me."
He started brushing his teeth fiercely. In the mirror as she watched there bloomed a great flower of leprous-colored foam, out of his mouth and down both sides of his chin.
"You want to go," she yelled, "go then."
He said something but around the toothbrush and through the foam neither could understand the words.
"You are scared of love and all that means is somebody else," she said. "As long as you don't have to give anything, be held to anything, sure: you can talk about love. Anything you have to talk about isn't real. It's only a way of putting yourself up. And anybody who tries to get through to you - me - down."
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Sunday, December 2, 2012
The fly in Ikey's ointment
The fly in Ikey's ointment (thrice welcome, pat trope!) was Chunk McGowan.
Mr. McGowan was also striving to catch the bright smiles tossed about by Rosy. But he was no outfielder as Ikey was; he picked them off the bat. At the same time he was Ikey's friend and customer, and often dropped in at the Blue Light Drug Store to have a bruise painted with iodine or get a cut rubber-plastered after a pleasant evening spent along the Bowery.
One afternoon McGowan drifted in in his silent, easy way, and sat, comely, smooth-faced, hard, indomitable, good-natured, upon a stool.
"Ikey,Moncler Outlet," said he, when his friend had fetched his mortar and sat opposite, grinding gum benzoin to a powder, "get busy with your ear. It's drugs for me if you've got the line I need."
Ikey scanned the countenance of Mr. McGowan for the usual evidences of conflict, but found none.
"Take your coat off," he ordered. "I guess already that you have been stuck in the ribs with a knife. I have many times told you those Dagoes would do you up."
Mr. McGowan smiled. "Not them," he said. "Not any Dagoes. But you've located the diagnosis all right enough--it's under my coat, near the ribs. Say! Ikey--Rosy and me are goin' to run away and get married to-night."
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"You said you wanted drugs," remarked Ikey.
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"I wouldn't have this double handicap make a false start to-night for a million," he said. "I've got a little flat up in Harlem all ready, with chrysanthemums on the table and a kettle ready to boil. And I've engaged a pulpit pounder to be ready at his house for us at 9.30. It's got to come off. And if Rosy don't change her mind again!"--Mr. McGowan ceased, a prey to his doubts.
"I don't see then yet," said Ikey, shortly, "what makes it that you talk of drugs, or what I can be doing about it."
"Old man Riddle don't like me a little bit," went on the uneasy suitor, bent upon marshalling his arguments. "For a week he hasn't let Rosy step outside the door with me. If it wasn't for losin' a boarder they'd have bounced me long ago. I'm makin' $20 a week and she'll never regret flyin' the coop with Chunk McGowan."
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"Take your coat off," he ordered. "I guess already that you have been stuck in the ribs with a knife. I have many times told you those Dagoes would do you up."
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Mr. McGowan looked ill at ease and harassed--a condition opposed to his usual line of demeanour. He made a patent-medicine almanac into a roll and fitted it with unprofitable carefulness about his finger.
"I wouldn't have this double handicap make a false start to-night for a million," he said. "I've got a little flat up in Harlem all ready, with chrysanthemums on the table and a kettle ready to boil. And I've engaged a pulpit pounder to be ready at his house for us at 9.30. It's got to come off. And if Rosy don't change her mind again!"--Mr. McGowan ceased, a prey to his doubts.
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"Old man Riddle don't like me a little bit," went on the uneasy suitor, bent upon marshalling his arguments. "For a week he hasn't let Rosy step outside the door with me. If it wasn't for losin' a boarder they'd have bounced me long ago. I'm makin' $20 a week and she'll never regret flyin' the coop with Chunk McGowan."
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Intriguing features of my early life: large and unbeautiful as I was, it appears I was not content. From my very first days I embarked upon an heroic programme of self-enlargement. (As though I knew that, to carry the burdens of my future life, I'd need to be pretty big.) By mid-September I had drained my mother's not inconsiderable breasts of milk. A wet-nurse was briefly employed but she retreated, dried-out as a desert after only a fortnight, accusing Baby Saleem of trying to bite off her nipples with his toothless gums,Moncler outlet online store. I moved on to the bottle and downed vast quantities of compound: the bottle's nipples suffered, too, vindicating the complaining wet-nurse. Baby-book records were meticulously kept; they reveal that I expanded almost visibly, enlarging day by day; but unfortunately no nasal measurements were taken so I cannot say whether my breathing apparatus grew in strict proportion, or faster than the rest. I must say that I had a healthy metabolism. Waste matter was evacuated copiously from the appropriate orifices; from my nose there flowed a shining cascade of goo.
Armies of handkerchiefs, regiments of nappies found their way into the large washing-chest in my mother's bathroom ... shedding rubbish from various apertures, I kept my eyes quite dry. 'Such a good baby, Madam,' Mary Pereira said, 'Never takes out one tear.'
Good baby Saleem was a quiet child; I laughed often, but soundlessly. (Like my own son, I began by taking stock, listening before I rushed into gurgles and, later, into speech.) For a time Amina and Mary became afraid that the boy was dumb; but, just when they were on the verge of telling his father (from whom they had kept their worries secret - no father wants a damaged child), he burst into sound, and became, in that respect at any rate, utterly normal, 'It's as if,' Amina whispered to Mary, 'he's decided to put our minds at rest.'
There was one more serious problem. Amina and Mary took a few days to notice it.
Busy with the mighty, complex processes of turning themselves into a two-headed mother, their vision clouded by a fog of stenchy underwear, they failed to notice the immobility of my eyelids. Amina,link, remembering how, during her pregnancy, the weight of her unborn child had held time as still as a dead green pond, began to wonder whether the reverse might not be taking place now - whether the baby had some magical power over all the time in his immediate vicinity, and was speeding it up, so that mother-and-ayah never had enough time to do everything that needed doing, so that the baby could grow at an apparently fantastic rate; lost in such chronological daydreams, she didn't notice my problem. Only when she shrugged the idea off,UGG Clerance, and told herself I was just a good strapping boy with a big appetite, an early developer, did the veils of maternal love part sufficiently for her and Mary to yelp, in unison: 'Look, baap-re-baap! Look, Madam! See, Mary! The little chap never blinks,replica louis vuitton handbags!'
The eyes were too blue: Kashmiri-blue, changeling-blue, blue with the weight of unspilled tears, too blue to blink. When I was fed, my eyes did not flutter; when virginal Mary set me across her shoulder, crying, 'Oof, so heavy, sweet Jesus!' I burped without nictating. When Ahmed Sinai limped splint-toed to my crib, I yielded to jutting lips with keen and batless gaze ... 'Maybe a mistake, Madam,' Mary suggested. 'Maybe the little sahib is copying us - blinking when we blink.' And Amina: 'We'll blink in turn and watch.' Their eyelids opening-and-closing alternately, they observed my icy blueness; but there was not the slightest tremor; until Amina took matters into her own hands and reached into the cradle to stroke my eyelids downwards. They closed: my breathing altered, instantly, to the contented rhythms of sleep. After that, for several months, mother and ayah took it in turns to open and close my lids.
Intriguing features of my early life: large and unbeautiful as I was, it appears I was not content. From my very first days I embarked upon an heroic programme of self-enlargement. (As though I knew that, to carry the burdens of my future life, I'd need to be pretty big.) By mid-September I had drained my mother's not inconsiderable breasts of milk. A wet-nurse was briefly employed but she retreated, dried-out as a desert after only a fortnight, accusing Baby Saleem of trying to bite off her nipples with his toothless gums,Moncler outlet online store. I moved on to the bottle and downed vast quantities of compound: the bottle's nipples suffered, too, vindicating the complaining wet-nurse. Baby-book records were meticulously kept; they reveal that I expanded almost visibly, enlarging day by day; but unfortunately no nasal measurements were taken so I cannot say whether my breathing apparatus grew in strict proportion, or faster than the rest. I must say that I had a healthy metabolism. Waste matter was evacuated copiously from the appropriate orifices; from my nose there flowed a shining cascade of goo.
Armies of handkerchiefs, regiments of nappies found their way into the large washing-chest in my mother's bathroom ... shedding rubbish from various apertures, I kept my eyes quite dry. 'Such a good baby, Madam,' Mary Pereira said, 'Never takes out one tear.'
Good baby Saleem was a quiet child; I laughed often, but soundlessly. (Like my own son, I began by taking stock, listening before I rushed into gurgles and, later, into speech.) For a time Amina and Mary became afraid that the boy was dumb; but, just when they were on the verge of telling his father (from whom they had kept their worries secret - no father wants a damaged child), he burst into sound, and became, in that respect at any rate, utterly normal, 'It's as if,' Amina whispered to Mary, 'he's decided to put our minds at rest.'
There was one more serious problem. Amina and Mary took a few days to notice it.
Busy with the mighty, complex processes of turning themselves into a two-headed mother, their vision clouded by a fog of stenchy underwear, they failed to notice the immobility of my eyelids. Amina,link, remembering how, during her pregnancy, the weight of her unborn child had held time as still as a dead green pond, began to wonder whether the reverse might not be taking place now - whether the baby had some magical power over all the time in his immediate vicinity, and was speeding it up, so that mother-and-ayah never had enough time to do everything that needed doing, so that the baby could grow at an apparently fantastic rate; lost in such chronological daydreams, she didn't notice my problem. Only when she shrugged the idea off,UGG Clerance, and told herself I was just a good strapping boy with a big appetite, an early developer, did the veils of maternal love part sufficiently for her and Mary to yelp, in unison: 'Look, baap-re-baap! Look, Madam! See, Mary! The little chap never blinks,replica louis vuitton handbags!'
The eyes were too blue: Kashmiri-blue, changeling-blue, blue with the weight of unspilled tears, too blue to blink. When I was fed, my eyes did not flutter; when virginal Mary set me across her shoulder, crying, 'Oof, so heavy, sweet Jesus!' I burped without nictating. When Ahmed Sinai limped splint-toed to my crib, I yielded to jutting lips with keen and batless gaze ... 'Maybe a mistake, Madam,' Mary suggested. 'Maybe the little sahib is copying us - blinking when we blink.' And Amina: 'We'll blink in turn and watch.' Their eyelids opening-and-closing alternately, they observed my icy blueness; but there was not the slightest tremor; until Amina took matters into her own hands and reached into the cradle to stroke my eyelids downwards. They closed: my breathing altered, instantly, to the contented rhythms of sleep. After that, for several months, mother and ayah took it in turns to open and close my lids.
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